30 NON CONSECUTIVE Days of Truth: Evasion Edition

OK, so something I have to forgive myself for.

OH MY GOD EVERYTHING.

People died. I wasn't there. I was there but not enough. I did not raise them from the dead.

You name something bad, I blame myself for it.

But for sure, the most horrible thing always involves my daughter. Every time I yelled at her in anger (not THAT many times). Any time I was not a complete adult in her presence. 

Half the time I don't know what to do. There's a lot of psychological brilliance required to raise one's kid well and my kid is especially challenging in this vein.

But just to cover all my bases, I have to forgive myself for being imperfect, petty, judgmental, lazy, unkind, selfish. I can be all these things.

Imperfect. What does one do? Such imperfection I embody in every way!

I'd rather not get into details.

Comments

[Juli]

Ditto.

[magpie]

This is a perfect sentence: Such imperfection I embody in every way!

[Claudia]

(( hugs ))

[roo]

How's the self-forgiveness going? I hope it's going well. And I hope you can forgive yourself if you can't forgive yourself everything.